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Death

Death do you fear me?

I feel you when you're lurking
I feel you when you're working
I hear you everyday
As I beckon you to come
Can you feel me?
Can you hear me?
Will you touch me, with your beautiful embrace.

Comfort me in darkness as you take my thoughts away.

I beckoned death night and day, but sadly never came.

Transformation

When the deafening sound of your mind overwhelms you to the center of your core. Shape shifting words and expressions, mind no longer yours, stranger within your own skin. Bones exposed to the nature beyond your control. 

Expression

Actions speak louder than words? Our actions say more about our character than the words we speak. Words have the power, power to inspire, to manipulate, to destroy, to create or break, to cause pain and joy.

How do you express yourself? When you care for a person, when you love, when you admire. How do you express those feelings?

I've always had difficulty expressing my feelings to another person. It's something I have always struggled with, and when you struggle expressing those feelings you realize how important they are to get them across. How important it is for the other person to know how you feel about them. It's hard for me to physically express my love for another person. Hugs, kisses, and any other form of physical contact that express your emotions. It is alien to me. To hug a person is still so very strange and unnatural even though it is the most natural thing to do right? It's hard for me to tell someone how much they mean to me, how much I love and care for them.

This extends even farther, my facial expressions are pretty stiff. You have no idea how many times I thought myself to be smiling when taking a picture only to be told "Why didn't you smile?" heh This is why I shy away from cameras. Unless I myself am taking one of my own. These things are what to most people come as most natural and are normal. To me these things are a damn battle! You'd be surprised how easily people are hurt when they don't get any sort of expression from you. What they don't understand is that it's involuntary. I've tried explaining but often times it results in the same response.