I Have Changed

I was just reading through my blog since I haven't been to it in a while. In one of my posts I said that to cease to exist after death is what I'd prefer. After so many years of suffering all you wish at a certain point is for everything to stop. To stop your emotions, your thoughts, to stop feeling. You want nothing more than to finally rest, to fall into a sleep without dreams or fantasies. From that time to now I have changed.