Caught Inbetween

Things seemed so easy and painless. In the end, I couldn't run away from what I didn't want to be. It overwhelmed me, darkened my heart and my mind. I let it consume me and turn me to what I most hated in others. 

Unable to sleep or stay awake, in between, caught in a limbo. I just want to break free. Down in hell or up in heaven, caught in between. My color is neither black nor white could it be gray?

People are fragile things I learned that long ago yet I speak with such cruel words. Maybe because the truth is cruel.